It kind of scares me. Seriously, I’ve been busting my ass for the last two years trying to make something of my life, trying to achieve my dream. Dream isn’t obtained yet, but I’m on my way, and I have no inclination to give up. I’m getting closer, and that’s great. Things with the hubs are fantastic. My brother moved out, and while we loved having him live with us, it’s nice to have our own space again. I mean, some days I just wanna walk around in my underwear and that’s doable again.
The best part of this arrangement is, my office is no longer my bedroom. I actually have just AN OFFICE! Complete with all the luxuries and distractions a girl could want, including but not limited to:
- A Television
- Dancing Groot
- A Couch To Read On
- And Of Course – The #AdorableDistraction had her bed moved in next to the desk. I mean, it’s just her day bed. At night she sleeps on the four post, king size bed with me and the hubs, and somehow winds up making US move around HER. I do not know how this happens….
Needless to say, I love it. I can decorate how I want, fart if I need to, and write without the distractions of people walking in and out. I fully plan on getting a:
Seriously, that’s the sign I want. Not joking. Must find. It will go on the door. I HAVE A LOCK! Well, my bedroom had a lock as well, but ya know, hubs might need to change clothes or get to the laundry room.
Dear Designer who created the lay out of my apartment. THE WASHER AND DRYER SHOULD NOT GO IN THE MASTER BATHROOM!
School is fantastic. I love FAU, my professors, and the classes I’m taking. I’m not overly fond of France Trollope and her view on The Domestic Manners of Americans, but hey you can’t love every book.
I got some wicked new ink!
Pretty epic, right? I love it! I go back on the 29th to get it finished. I had to postpone because I have a job interview, well a second job interview really, but I’m not going to go into that because I don’t want to jinx it.
The point is, that because things are going so well, and I’m not used to it, I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop.
Maybe it’s because I’m off my meds. No, seriously, trying to pop out a mini me at some point. No anti anxiety meds anymore. This could very well just be my irrational brain making run in circles and be on the look out for the first bad thing to happen, which will then make me justified.
Which, of course it’s not justified. Not in the slightest. Bad things happen. Terrible things happen. Life happens. It’s all a huge circle and yes, the bad makes me appreciate the good more. I just feel like I’ve experienced more bad then good, so when all this awesome circles me, I’m terrified to reach for it because, what if it’s not tangible? What if it’s out of my grasp?
Yup, see that’s the anxiety talking.
So, I’m going to keep on focusing on the good, learning from the bad, and telling my anxiety to shut the hell up.
Have a Wildly Creative Day All! I got my CP group and then more organization to do for my office. I’ll toss up pics when its ready to go. 😀